Life As We Know It

I know it's been five weeks since the last time I have blogged.  Life has been really busy all around lately.  Not that I can even tell you what we've been doing specifically.  Mainly working I guess.  Adam has been working a lot of overtime and I am working full time, so that leaves little time at home. 

I've been finding myself remembering a lot about what was happening this time last year.  I've been doing pretty good for the most part, but then I think about what we were doing a year ago.  My sisters and I were planning my mom's birthday party.  We wanted it to be special for her with some of her close friends.  She really wasn't sure that she wanted to celebrate at all, but I am so glad we did.  We didn't realize it would be one of the last times her friends would get together with her, and the last birthday we would ever celebrate with her. 

We weren't only celebrating her birthday.  We thought this was the beginning of her healing.  Treatments were done and my sisters and I were looking forward to getting back to normal.  I couldn't wait to do all the things we used to do.  Shopping, going on walks, planning opening day fishing at Silver Lake.  But the week after her birthday she started feeling worse.  All these things went out the window.  I really don't even know where my emotions and thoughts are going with this.  But I just keep thinking about this time last year.  It was like someone was saying "haha, you have no clue what's going to happen".  Because really, we didn't.

I can honestly say I've come a long way in these last 10 months...but I feel like I have a long way to go still.  I miss my mom so much.  There is so much I wish I could ask her and so much that has happend in the last ten months that I've really needed her here for.  I am ready for more healing.  I know God has been so good to me and I know I wouldn't be where I am spiritually if it wasn't for my mom.  I can remember last year I put a post on facebook saying something about being ready for a new season and happy things...I am really hesitant to wish for something like that again, but I know that as long as I let God do what he is going to do and have faith in him, everything will be ok.

This is why I haven't posted in a long time.  I never really know where my posts are going to end up.  But I always feel better in the end.  Well Adam and I are both off work today, so hopefully we can go do something fun.  It's been a long time and we both really need it.  I haven't been taking many pictures lately, even with my new fancy camera, but I'll try to find one to complete this.

A Glance

This is another one of my "I just got home from Bunco and I love my Aunts" post.  I'll keep it breif because I don't think I can type much anyway without losing it.  My aunt Robin shared a dream she had on Christmas Eve or Christmas.  I know there is no way I will be able to explain it as she saw it, but we are lucky enough to get a glance. 

So in her dream she was at the airport getting off of one of the terminal shuttles.  She was the first one off and looked and saw my mom standing there.  She thought...that's not right, she's not here and kept going.  Then  when she turned back my mom was standing there.  My mom said to her, "It's beautiful here.  Tell them it's beautiful here".  And that was it.  I seriously can't even think about it without losing it.  I am speechless...

I am so thankful my aunt got to have this dream and share it with us.  I believe 100% that my mom was truely able to tell us this.  It gives me so much more peace and hope that she is so happy in Heaven.

Thank you for sharing Robin! 

Caught Up

I know it's been a couple weeks since I've posted anything.  I still keep stewing over what to post.  I will get there, I promise.  It's been a busy start to the new year.  I'm back at work full time and to start it off right, I slipped and fell while getting the mail yesterday at work.  In the crosswalk, right in front of the office!  I'm not sure if it was as embarassing as it hurt though!  I ripped my pants and am now holding my knee together with a few butterly band-aids...ugh!  It is a big gash! :(  I am now enjoying my lunch breaks at home though.  Almira started going to Tara Hanson's today.  So I get to enjoy my lunch whithout having to run her to the next location.  I'm hoping and praying for a smooth and happy new year.  God knows we need it.  He has been good nonetheless!  I will post more and Christmas and everything else soon, I promise!

I'll leave you with this bright eyed girl for now!  Happy New Year to everyone!